purpose

most of the time i am not sure what to call it

hiking.. mountaineering.. alpine..climbing.. who knows..
everything along that line makes me focus..
it pumps blood in my vein ..
i smile.. i shake my head..
i cringe .. i yell YEAAHH ( most of the time very quietly )

it makes me having a goal
... a purpose
it makes me giddy.. it makes me frustrated ..
it makes me angry and wants to yell FUCK THAT!!

it changed my life .. and hopefully my future
it becomes a dream 
it becomes a lifestyle
now i am a noob
who's hoping to keep going
and not gonna die trying